In a contemplative mood —howdimissthat

howdimissthat:

I didn't know which would make this harder to deal with, knowing the truth from the start or hearing it after believing I had a promise of an eternal family.

I definitely think death is harder to deal with after believing in eternal life and then losing that belief. It feels like something precious has been taken away, even if it was never there to begin with. It's one of my biggest regrets that this cruel joke has been extended to my kids now.